Motivation

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SO MUCH OF WRITING DIDN’T SATISFY THE DESIRE I FEEL FOR SAYING WHAT IS ON MY MIND. SOMETHING THAT I ENJOY WOULD BE HAVING THE INDEPENDENCE TO EXPRESS MY OPINION WITHOUT HAVING TO RELY ON OTHER PEOPLE. FOR EXAMPLE, I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH A GIRL WITHOUT WAITING FOR AN ADULT TO HELP ME.

EVERYTHING I AM DOING IS FOR THE PURPOSE OF GAINING THE SKILLS TO BE JUDGED ON THE MERITS OF MY WORDS. FOR EXAMPLE, WHEN YOU OR STORMY SUPPORT ME, I JUST EXPECT SOMEONE TO DISAGREE WITH THE ANSWER. REALLY, I DO. YOU WOULD THINK BY NOW THEY BELIEVE THAT I AM THE ONE TALKING.

MY REVOLUTION

disability_activism_9k-not-being-able-to-speakTHE REVOLUTION I WANT TO START IS FOR THE INCLUSION OF PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES IN EVERY REALM OF SOCIETY. THERE IS A GAPING HOLE OF REPRESENTATION SHOWING US TAKING PART IN THE NORMAL, DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITIES THAT EVERYONE TAKES FOR GRANTED. VERY FEW PEOPLE LIKE ME EVER MAKE IT TO GENERAL EDUCATION CLASSROOMS.

RIGHT NOW, I WOULD IDENTIFY AS SOMEONE WHO LEANS TO THE LEFT FAVORING SANDERS’ IDEAS AS GOALS TO WORK TOWARDS. THERE ARE VALUES IN HIS CAMPAIGN THAT FIT CLOSELY WITH MY REVOLUTION. GIVEN THAT PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES HAVE TRADITIONALLY BEEN EXCLUDED FROM POLITICS, I FIND HIS CAMPAIGN TO BE FILLED WITH REVOLUTIONARY IDEAS THAT WILL BENEFIT PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES. YET THERE ARE NO PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES PROMINENTLY FEATURED ON HIS CAMPAIGN. WITH THIS IN MIND, MY REVOLUTION WILL BE CALLED “THE DISABLED UNDERCLASS GETS BERNED.” IT WILL ENERGIZE THOSE OF US WHO WANT TO FIND OUR PLACE IN SOCIETY WHILE HAVING A MIGHTY APPEARANCE OF THE BACKING OF BERNIE SANDERS SUPPORTERS.

THERE ARE MANY FACTORS THAT HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO THE REVOLUTION I AM PROPOSING. I DON’T NEED TO REMIND EVERYONE THAT I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. THERE WERE TOO MANY REASONS WHY I COULDN’T BE SUPPORTED GOING TO SCHOOL. BUT I UNDERSTOOD WHY I NEEDED TO BE HERE: TO MAKE A PATH FOR OTHERS. I REALIZE THAT I HAVE A PURPOSE. THIS IS THE SAME SENTIMENT SHARED BY OTHER REVOLUTIONARIES LEADERS. A WIDE RANGE OF THEM ALWAYS BELIEVED IN THEIR CAUSE: MEN WHO CARRIED THE BURDEN OF THEIR BELIEFS ALONE. IT WAS WHEN THOSE IDEAS SPREAD AND FOUND SUPPORT AMONG MORE PEOPLE THAT THE SEEDS OF REVOLUTION TOOK ROOT.

THE HISTORICAL BACKGROUND TO MY REVOLUTION INCLUDES ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO LIVE THEIR LIVES IN AN INDEPENDENT WAY. THESE GROUPS SPAN ETHNIC IDENTITY AND RACE, GENDER AND WEALTH, AGE AND ABILITY. HOWEVER, SOMETHING UNITES US – OUR OPPRESSIVE STATE. WE HAVE BEEN SECOND CLASS CITIZENS SINCE WE WERE BORN. HEAVY IN MY HEART ARE THOSE WHO LANGUISHED IN INSTITUTIONS ALL THEIR LIVES. THEY KNEW THEY WERE PEOPLE WHOSE RIGHTS HAD BEEN TAKEN AWAY FROM THEM. FREEING MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS FROM THIS POWERLESS STATE IS THE SOLE PURPOSE OF MY REVOLUTION.

SOMEHOW WORD WILL GET OUT TO THE RIGHT PEOPLE. DEFINITELY, WE WILL USE THE INTERNET TO ATTRACT PEOPLE WHO ARE PRIVATE ABOUT THEIR DISABILITY. IT IS ALSO THE PREFERRED HOME FOR AUTISTICS. WE WILL HAVE ALLIES READY TO CHEER US ON. THESE ALLIES WILL INCLUDE FAMILIES, TEACHERS, AND LOVED ONES. BUT THEY WILL NOT BE IN CHARGE – THE PEOPLE LEADING THE REVOLUTION WILL BE THOSE OF US WHO LIVE WITH SIGNIFICANT DISABILITIES.

REVOLUTION IS NOT EASY OR GLAMOROUS. SO MUCH OF IT HARDLY RELATES TO THE MARCHES AND PUBLIC PROTESTS THAT WE SEE IN HISTORICAL FOOTAGE. RATHER, IT IS ALL ABOUT BACK ROOM NEGOTIATIONS AND FRIENDS IN HIGH PLACES. THEREFORE, WE NEED TO ORGANIZE OURSELVES INTO A POLITICAL ACTION COMMITTEE AND RAISE MONEY TO ELECT POLITICIANS WHO WILL SUPPORT OUR AGENDA.
WHETHER YOU ARE LETTING THE SYSTEM CARE FOR YOU OR THERE ARE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO CARE FOR YOU, THE END RESULT IS THE SAME – YOU DESERVE THE RIGHT TO BE INCLUDED IN SCHOOL, IN YOUR COMMUNITY, AND IN ALL DECISIONS RELATED TO YOUR INDEPENDENCE. THIS IS THE UTOPIA THIS REVOLUTION WILL BRING ABOUT.

THE REVOLUTION BEGINS TODAY! TODAY WE DEMAND THAT OUR RIGHTS ARE EQUAL TO THE RIGHTS OF EVERYONE ELSE. TODAY WE DEMAND THAT YOUR GREAT MOVEMENT OF EQUALITY THAT WAS BORN IN THE FIFTIES WIDEN ITS SCOPE TO INCLUDE PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES. IT IS NOT ENOUGH TO VOICE YOUR OPINIONS – WE NEED YOUR ACTIVE SUPPORT. AFTER ALL, WE ARE YOUR CHILDREN, YOUR FRIENDS, AND YOUR FELLOW HUMANS. USE YOUR TIME ON EARTH TO MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE.

 

PROM

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LAST NIGHT WAS ONE OF THE ABSOLUTELY BEST NIGHTS OF MY LIFE. REALLY TRULY, ONE OF THE BEST. WHETHER IT WAS THE LOUD MUSIC OR THE SWIRLING LIGHTS, THERE WAS NOT A SINGLE MOMENT WHEN I WANTED TO LEAVE. THE HIGH SCHOOL WANTED TO MAKE IT A NIGHT TO REMEMBER, AND THEY SUCCEEDED.
WHAT WAS THE VERY BEST PART WAS ALL THE TIME I GOT TO SPEND WITH TONI AND KIYAH. THEY ARE THE SWEETEST GIRLS I KNOW, AND THEY MADE THE NIGHT SPECIAL. RAPID PROMPTING METHOD DID NOT PREPARE ME FOR TALKING TO PRETTY GIRLS! THAT COMES NATURALLY.
WP_20160528_18_31_17_ProMY SUIT JACKET WAS SURPRISINGLY COMFORTABLE. IT WAS WEIRD TO WEAR A BOW TIE, BUT I LIKED THE WAY IT LOOKED. HOWEVER, IT WAS GREAT TO BE A PART OF THAT EXPERIENCE.

The Thermals Show

THE THERMALS SHOW WAS GREAT. SEEING THEM WAS LIKE MAKING FUN OUT OF FANTASY. ONE OF THE HIGH POINTS OF THE YEAR, FOR SURE. IT WAS SOMETHING I’LL NEVER FORGET.

WHEN WE GOT THERE, I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. THE SHOW HAD ALREADY STARTED, AND THE BAND THAT OPENED FOR THE THERMALS WAS ON. I DIDN’T KNOW THEIR MUSIC, BUT I LIKED THEIR SOUND. NO ONE STARED AT ME WHEN I JUMPED AROUND. I LIKED THAT PART.

WHEN THE THERMALS CAME ON, IT WAS LIKE A FLOODLIGHT WAS TURNED ON INSIDE ME. HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT I MEAN? IT’S LIKE HAVING EVERY CELL IN YOUR BODY TUNED TO THE SAME FREQUENCY, AND THE VOLUME TURNED ALL THE WAY UP. LIKE I WAS ONE WITH THE MUSICAL NOTES THAT WERE STREAMING OUT OF THE SPEAKERS.

A LOT OF MY EXPERIENCE WITH MUSIC IS LIKE THAT. IT’S A FULL BODY EXPERIENCE. THE BASS NOTES HIT MY GROIN AND PULSE THERE. THE DRUMS HIT ME RIGHT IN THE CHEST. THE GUITARS GET ME RIGHT IN THE HANDS. AND THE VOCALS SHOOT DIRECTLY INTO MY BRAIN.

THIS IS ESPECIALLY TRUE WHEN THE THERMALS PLAYED SONGS FROM THEIR ALBUM ‘THE BODY THE BLOOD THE MACHINE.’ I LISTEN TO THESE SONGS EVERY DAY, AND NEVER TIRE OF THEM. WHEN I HEARD THEM AT THE SHOW, IT WAS A GREAT WELCOMING TO ME. TIME WILL TELL IF THERE WILL BE MORE ALBUMS LIKE TBTBTM, BUT FOR NOW, I WILL KEEP TO THAT ALBUM.

April and Awareness

That is nice that April is autism awareness month. But haven’t we moved past awareness? I believe it is time for people to work towards creating good solutions for autistics to be fully included. Any organization that aspires to aid autistics must have autistics involved in decision making.